Oz and I sat around talking for hours. It was really nice. We hadn't really had a good conversation in a long time. Well, it seemed like a long time anyway. He layed back onto the couch and sighed. "I hate this." He said. "Hate what?" I asked. "I'm not over you yet." He said. "And these last few hours have just put me right back to square one." "Oh. . ." I said. I started to feel a little upset. "Have your feelings for me changed at all?" He asked. "I've missed you like hell." I said. "But I am not over the Carmen thing." "Have you talked to her?" He asked. "Breifly the other day when she came into the store." I said. "I've been avoiding her." He said. "I'm really embarassed about that whole situation." "You are?" "Of course." He said. "It was so messed up. I don't know why I beleived her about you being all over Spence either. I was so stupid that night." I didn't know what to say. I felt just as irresponsible when I thought about my actions that night. "I am so sorry. You have no idea how horrible I feel about it." He said. He started to look really upset. "I'm just a complete ass." "You are not." I said. "And I was just as dumb that night." "Lola, I love you." He blurted out. "It hurts so much." "You stayed in Arizona longer because you wanted to be with your ex." I said. "We were just hooking up." He said. I looked away. It was obvious he never thought before he spoke. What would make him think that I would want to hear that? Why couldn't he just say he needed company or something? I didn't say anything. "She doesn't mean anything to me." He said. "Anything?" I asked. "Well, obviously SOMETHING, but not in a romantic way." He said. "You're not making yourself sound any better, Oz." I said. "I'm sorry." He said. "I just wanted the closeness I guess. I wanted the attention from a girl." I sighed. "Do you love me?" He asked. I started crying and shook my head no. "Do you still have feelings for me?" He asked. I nodded. "I don't get it." He said. "Neither do I." I sobbed wiping my eyes. He put his arms around me and held me tight. "Are you willing to give it another shot?" He asked. "I don't know." I said. "I think you should." He said. I smiled and shrugged my shoulders as he let go of me. "I think you should." He said again smiling. I just smiled back. "I'm serious." He said.
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Oz and I sat around talking for hours. It was really nice. We hadn't really had a good conversation in a long time. Well, it seemed like a long time anyway.
He layed back onto the couch and sighed. "I hate this." He said.
"Hate what?" I asked.
"I'm not over you yet." He said. "And these last few hours have just put me right back to square one."
"Oh. . ." I said. I started to feel a little upset.
"Have your feelings for me changed at all?" He asked.
"I've missed you like hell." I said. "But I am not over the Carmen thing."
"Have you talked to her?" He asked.
"Breifly the other day when she came into the store." I said.
"I've been avoiding her." He said. "I'm really embarassed about that whole situation."
"You are?"
"Of course." He said. "It was so messed up. I don't know why I beleived her about you being all over Spence either. I was so stupid that night."
I didn't know what to say. I felt just as irresponsible when I thought about my actions that night.
"I am so sorry. You have no idea how horrible I feel about it." He said. He started to look really upset. "I'm just a complete ass."
"You are not." I said. "And I was just as dumb that night."
"Lola, I love you." He blurted out. "It hurts so much."
"You stayed in Arizona longer because you wanted to be with your ex." I said.
"We were just hooking up." He said.
I looked away. It was obvious he never thought before he spoke. What would make him think that I would want to hear that? Why couldn't he just say he needed company or something? I didn't say anything.
"She doesn't mean anything to me." He said.
"Anything?" I asked.
"Well, obviously SOMETHING, but not in a romantic way." He said.
"You're not making yourself sound any better, Oz." I said.
"I'm sorry." He said. "I just wanted the closeness I guess. I wanted the attention from a girl."
I sighed.
"Do you love me?" He asked.
I started crying and shook my head no.
"Do you still have feelings for me?" He asked.
I nodded.
"I don't get it." He said.
"Neither do I." I sobbed wiping my eyes. He put his arms around me and held me tight.
"Are you willing to give it another shot?" He asked.
"I don't know." I said.
"I think you should." He said.
I smiled and shrugged my shoulders as he let go of me.
"I think you should." He said again smiling.
I just smiled back.
"I'm serious." He said.
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